nothing unusual happened today. except for I received a wedding invitation from a friend in Oregon who I went on a mission trip with in 1999. She sent it to me middle June and I finally got it. The school takes forever in forwarding mail. Because of that slowness, I missed the wedding. The wedding was July 1oth. That stinks because I would have loved to see her again. I have not seen her since our mission trip that summer. we kept in touch really well after the trip but lost contact and finally got back into writing each other this past summer.
 
In exactly two weeks, I will be on the road again going to MO. I have an application I am working on filling out for an apartment place. It is a top rated place and that means it is on the expensive side, but it comes with own washer and dryer and gated community. We will see about it. It is close to school too. Oh, I found out that sales tax there in MO was 6.6%. That is soo cool.
 
On the agenda for tomorrow : PAPERS and PAPERS...got two of them due sunday night. Last day of summer school July 23. CANT WAIT :)

nothing damaging really happened today. I did receive a package from Stitch and it brightened up my day. It is almost like she knew that I would need some cheering up at this point in time. Only God can do that. Our God is amazing and I am glad I am one of his. I have been reminded over and over about going to God, He will comfort you, He will wrap his arms around you, He will give you strength to get through this time. Another aspect that is helping me is all my friends. You guys are soo amazing and I am blessed by you guys. I am very thankful for the friends I have.
 
The next chapter in my life is slowly being written because I have not been doing anything. If I had to actually write a book about myself, I sure think it would be interesting and a lot of ups and downs and a lot of crying going on. But this new chapter I have talked about in earlier posts. I have no idea what will unfold in it. I have some ideas that I would really like to happen but most of those do not depend on me. Instead they depend on others and what they do.  Some people do know what I would like to happen but who knows that they will really happen. God is so unpredictable at times. What I mean is, that He will bring into our lives things that we do not expect. That is what makes life interesting.
 
Well, I am going to bed. Got to get up early.
 
 

just when it could not get any worse, it does.....

we found out today that my dad's mom has cancer in both of her lungs and that the cancer is spreading...y does all the bad stuff tend to hit at the same time or close to other bad stuff or in the year that started off with bad stuff...it doesnt make any sense to me....but could you keep our family in your prayers...we will greatly appreciate it...

i need to focus and be motivated to do my homework but i dont know how to with all this bad stuff going on around me...but i have to finish up my classes...i am pushing myself too...

i realized something today...my dad's family experienced a death this year too...one of my dad's uncles died...i have no idea why my family is a target this year for hardships and heartaches....it confuses me but through all this there has to be a reason that all of this is happening....i guess i will be patient to knowing this reason....

life is short...we never know when the next breath will be our last or anyone else's last....we should be thankful for each and every breath we take...and for each and every day we wake up...we are not promised tomorrow....this is what i have been learning this past year....you can be 16 and ur life is taken suddenly or you can suffering from cancer and die when your old or you can die of old age...it does not matter...you can die at any age and in any fashion...only God knows our schedule here on earth...

In other news, only like 10 more days of summer classes and I will be officially done with my classes at LU...it seems like SAGA might listen to some of the students demands and change the types of meal plans but not the price...thats good that they are willing to listen and change but they still need to do something about the price and about the quality of the food.

I am feeling all better...my fever is gone...my headache is gone....i am slowly regaining my energy..things are getting better healthwise....

I need to clean and start separating and packing my stuff for my July 30th departure...the end of this month is gonna be extremely busy...mom gets back from FL the 26th to turn around and go back out with me four days later...i pray that mom has the strength and energy to handle everything....

well...thats enough for now...im going to bed...catch you all another time

update..

my grandfather died of natural causes...old age....his heart just gave out...mom is flying to FL tonight to take care of everything...dad has the possibility of going tonight...my brother is dragging his butt on rather he wants to go or not...its getting annoying here..but i guess that is what you get for last minute unexpecting deaths and then with a small town....this tells me again why I hate small towns....i hate them i hate them...i cant wait till I get to a big city....they have so many options and cheaper expenses...anyways...i got to go....ill keep yall updated.

more bad news for this year.....

my grandfather died this morning.....i have no idea if he was saved or not....so his death makes things a bit harder....normally what gets me through deaths is the fact that i will see them again...but i dont know about this time....his death was soo unexpected just like my other grandfather and my friends that have died...

i dont understand why he died or how he died....it has been a rough year so far for our family with a friend dying in Jan, my uncle in a serious cycling accident, my dad's mom being diagnosed with cancer, and now my mom's dad dying...why is God putting our family through this much turmoil and pain and lost. if he thought we could handle it, then i think he is wrong cause i dont think out family can handle any more of this this year...i wish i understood why but i doubt i will ever understand why...

now my children (if I ever have any) will never know my grandfathers....that is sad....because i enjoyed hanging out with them both....they even wont know the fine "adopted" grandfather I had. (an older couple in my grandparents mobile park in florida adopted our family as theirs because their only son died....i enjoy this relationship with the wonderful lady who is still alive -even though she is old, she taught herself to use the computer and email-)

life is just unfair sometimes...i know i became upset with God when J died at the beginning of the year....but i dont know what i feel toward God right now...i just want some answers and i want to know why why why and what is God trying to do with our family this year